365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 14 – In Denial

I can’t even call her a third party because we don’t have a label. Everyday it’s getting harder and harder to deny the feeling that I was not the one who’s meant to be his. I wanted to give up but still I fought to reach him. I thought I could change him because I…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 13 – Shookt

I was one of those paranoids. I sensed something wrong. I felt his coldness. After responding to my message that he can’t love me like the way I love him, I’ve been seeing his social media posts. By then, I hated the words “Matchy-Matchy” and “Africa”. I am so hurt that he proudly posts things…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 12 – Blame It On Me

One day, I saw his journal. I thought those sweet stories he wrote about us will reach at least a year, but no. I prevented myself from checking it for sometime, but for some reason, I found myself reading it again. My excitement was drifted to devastation. I was awakened from my dream by a…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 11 – Silent War

I hate and am afraid of confrontations. I know that I will burst into tears and wont be able to speak of what I feel before I can even explain my side of the story. why I was disappointed or what made me feel that way. We ended our thing through messaging. How lame was…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 10 – The Foolish One

I should have confronted him about the other girl, instead of questioning his feelings for me. If only I knew that after all what we have done, it didn’t changed his feelings for me. If only I knew he’ll let go of me that easy. I should have just went on the flow and let…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 9 – Uncontrollable Variables

I heard him say ‘I love you’. I was so happy. Can you blame me? I waited for this for so long. At last, he saw me. At last, my loyalty paid off. All my efforts were acknowledged. It’s like winning a lottery. My heart leaped. It was rare. I believed it. I treasured it….

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 8 – My Faithful Heart

I have been rejected by him many times, indirectly. But this time, it’s different. Game over. He already concluded and told me that he can’t reciprocate the kind of love I have for him. I knew he couldn’t but I still played a role that wasn’t granted to me. I voluntarily baited myself for this…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 7 – Little Did You Know

Am I really that hard to handle? I get to be talkative when I’m on the mood and, especially, when I’m with my friends. I am stubborn. I love picking a fight with him even if I know that I will not win the argument because he’s the kind of guy that is high-tempered and…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 6 – Ms Complicated

Am I that hard to handle? I am the quiet type of person, which is different from a shy type one. I refrain from being noticed or standing out from the crowd but I interact. I prefer to blend in rather than to be the focus, but I wish he had set his eyes solely…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 5 – What If

The hauntings that were supposed to be reveries kept bugging me through the night, when half the world’s sleeping and half the world’s awake. I was drowned by the what if’s, the unlimited possibilities, my optimistic self could think of. What if I stayed where I was like I did before? Maybe he hasn’t moved…

365 DAYS OF MOVING ON: Day 3 – Maybe Maybe Not

I tried to win him back. Maybe, he was waiting for me. Maybe, he was just testing me. Maybe, I was just overreacting. I messaged him that maybe we can try again. I begged him to stay. I thought maybe we could have another chance, when we can be true. I thought this was just…